I'm half asleep right now--please forgive any awkward wording/grammar or rampaging typo beasts.
Today marks one week since Grace's passing. I've been feeling completely disconnected from reality: intellectually, I understand that she is gone, but emotionally, I feel that she is still here. There have been a few instances where I've tried to e-mail or text her only to stop myself once I came to the realization that she was gone. When I walked into my dad's house on Wednesday, I almost expected her to be in the living room waiting to loudly proclaim, "IT'S YOUUUUU. Hai dumb betch!" as she had done so many times before.
At least I have my memories... so many wonderful memories. No one made me laugh more than Grace did. I try to remember all of the good times we had when I start to feel sad because smiling is so much better than crying--and I know she would prefer that I do the former and not the latter.
I've been completely blown away by the flood of condolences and support I've received here on dA. I can't even begin to thank you all enough. I would like to extend a special thank you to those of you who are already organ donors and those who have become one after reading Grace's story. Thank you for showing me that good people still exist in this world; it warms this cynical heart.
My husband and I had lunch with
and her husband
the other day and a full teapot wound up flying off of our table without any interference from us. I'm not usually one to believe in these kinds of things, but I'm really beginning to think Grace was up to her usual shenanigans. Jen also got a fortune cookie that said:
Somewhere, deep inside, we all can fly. Coincidence or not, I still found it oddly relevant to the past week. It is now taped to my computer monitor. These two awesome people also adopted my sister's two orphaned cockatiels and I can't even begin to express how happy it makes me. I'm so very lucky to have friends like you guys.
One foot in front of the other, one day at a time. I will make you proud, Grace.